I had a dream, maybe a nightmare or maybe just cze I've thinked too much about th past.. She appeared in my dreams, helping him t get some things done and we pretended we're nothing at all but she found out some pictures that shldn't be seen and she went off running away from it, he chased her, without even thinking how I feels. I left hanging half way w my feelings I cried w all my strenght I felt my heart torn into pieces. I called him but yet he was worried about her more than me.. I asked him t make a choice me or her.. He can't answer me.. So I left th answer empty.. After that Cass called, and I woke up in tears I can feel that my pillow is wet w tears.. I can feel th feeling is so real. Like as thou I'm really going thru it.
It has alr gotten over, I shouldn't be thinking about it anymore, but today it actually appears in my dreams again about th past. Can't I really let go about th past!? What's most important is th future. I miss everything of my love ones, I really miss.. Not about my ex-boyfs but my family, I miss th complete family even without my dad around me, I miss my grandfather taking us out for breakfast, dinner, supper. I miss him bringing us t th pool while my grandmother actually don't let. I miss th way me and Cassandra snatching him t tell us bedtime stories I miss th way he scold me whenever I asked him t make milo let me drink.
I miss th way my great grandma hold me hand t sleep while she's unwell, I miss th way she asked me question about school, I miss th way she's laugh and smile at me cze of my naive thinking. But it was too late.. I let my thoughts run wild when she left. I miss everything about th past when I've got nothing t bother about. Everything was planned for me. But God took back everything from me, cze he knows that I'm a not-so-strong gal. Even till now, I'm still a soft-hearted, not-so-strong, careless, clumsy little gal. I miss I really miss alot of things. I love things it is now, but sometimes if in th past when we knew nothing would be better. I miss those little fights me and Cassandra made while we're young. Suddenly th past hit back into my mind.
My grandfather has left cze of his woman outside.. So I've got nothing more t say but I miss th good times when everything was fine. My dad left me for I don't know th reason I don't wish t know either. I felt there's too much things around me t tell me that I've got t be strong in order t protect myself. I've t try t be one and must be one.
I had a dream, maybe a nightmare or maybe just cze I've thinked too much about th past.. She appeared in my dreams, helping him t get some things done and we pretended we're nothing at all but she found out some pictures that shldn't be seen and she went off running away from it, he chased her, without even thinking how I feels. I left hanging half way w my feelings I cried w all my strenght I felt my heart torn into pieces. I called him but yet he was worried about her more than me.. I asked him t make a choice me or her.. He can't answer me.. So I left th answer empty.. After that Cass called, and I woke up in tears I can feel that my pillow is wet w tears.. I can feel th feeling is so real. Like as thou I'm really going thru it.
It has alr gotten over, I shouldn't be thinking about it anymore, but today it actually appears in my dreams again about th past. Can't I really let go about th past!? What's most important is th future. I miss everything of my love ones, I really miss.. Not about my ex-boyfs but my family, I miss th complete family even without my dad around me, I miss my grandfather taking us out for breakfast, dinner, supper. I miss him bringing us t th pool while my grandmother actually don't let. I miss th way me and Cassandra snatching him t tell us bedtime stories I miss th way he scold me whenever I asked him t make milo let me drink.
I miss th way my great grandma hold me hand t sleep while she's unwell, I miss th way she asked me question about school, I miss th way she's laugh and smile at me cze of my naive thinking. But it was too late.. I let my thoughts run wild when she left. I miss everything about th past when I've got nothing t bother about. Everything was planned for me. But God took back everything from me, cze he knows that I'm a not-so-strong gal. Even till now, I'm still a soft-hearted, not-so-strong, careless, clumsy little gal. I miss I really miss alot of things. I love things it is now, but sometimes if in th past when we knew nothing would be better. I miss those little fights me and Cassandra made while we're young. Suddenly th past hit back into my mind.
My grandfather has left cze of his woman outside.. So I've got nothing more t say but I miss th good times when everything was fine. My dad left me for I don't know th reason I don't wish t know either. I felt there's too much things around me t tell me that I've got t be strong in order t protect myself. I've t try t be one and must be one.
A dream that seems so real..
