Was it my day or not? I feels happy during my work but then sales wasn't good. I wants to go on a trip soon. I've uploaded my facebook with new photos and went on with others profile. There's millions of things going through my mind right now especially Mas. I love Mas she's seems to be the most lovable babe in CP to deserve my love so much man. I never felt so happy with anyone in CP before but she's the first one cause she helped me since I worked in CP for the very first day.
I love you girl, if you can read this!! (: You've never fills me up with laughter during work especially gossiping about God knows who. I can never describe how beloved she is, she's really adorable she can be mean at times she can be lovable she also helps me with my counter when I'm not around. You're loved Mas, count yourself lucky! Lol.
Siti also never make me stops laughing whenever she's free but sadly to say she's leaving us on the 31st Dec, planning to give her a farewell party before she leaves, and me and Mas is off on the 31st Dec but we specially go down to CP just to look for Siti before she leaves! Girl, I'll miss you alot when you're not around cause another gossip kakis of mine is gone. Take care of yourself alright?
Christmas is arriving soon man, lots of things to prepare and get ready for. New year is next but think this year Christmas will be normal maybe get myself 4 dresses to spend for Christmas and New Year. (: I'm dumping the thoughts of having the FCUK watch already. Since my watch always spoilt, I'm still not to the extend that I need such a expensive watch but pretty dresses to makes my days wonderful cause I look good. Okay! I know I'm being very dumb right now to share my thoughts. But whatever things that concern Siti and Mas is true! Words are hard to express my feelings for them, but at least they understand that its from the bottom of my heart.
Time is getting not enough each day. Time flies seriously, it seems like few months back I enter the year of 2008 and now its going to be 2009. I'm still wondering will the world really ends at 2012 or its me thinking too much. I'm worried I still haven't do things that I really wanted to try, for example being a mother of a child and even a wife of someone. Seriously I'm afraid of the word death though there's many times I attempted to kill myself by slitting myself and swallowing pills but it didn't success maybe its God given me a chance to think twice before succeeding in killing myself. Finally found out that its wasn't because my family didn't love me enough its me that I didn't accept whatever they have given to me I've rejected them all. I'm foolish at times. Well, now that I know I'm not walking this path I choose alone I still have my beloved ones accompanying me walking till I reached the end of life.
Life is seriously precious, I've read a friend's blog she went Myanmar to teach those kids there what is Christmas, when I read her post tears just flow down my eyes telling me kids over there are already satisfies because we're there to help them. They lead happy lives even when they are poor but what is happy to us? They can't get whatever they wants but they are happy, what about us? They are willing to even walk 6 km just because of hunger, they are willing to suffer walking then being hungry. As for us? I seriously don't know I gets almost whatever I wants but I'm still not satisfies with lives I'm still unhappy. What do I need to make myself happy like how they do?
Was it my day or not? I feels happy during my work but then sales wasn't good. I wants to go on a trip soon. I've uploaded my facebook with new photos and went on with others profile. There's millions of things going through my mind right now especially Mas. I love Mas she's seems to be the most lovable babe in CP to deserve my love so much man. I never felt so happy with anyone in CP before but she's the first one cause she helped me since I worked in CP for the very first day.
I love you girl, if you can read this!! (: You've never fills me up with laughter during work especially gossiping about God knows who. I can never describe how beloved she is, she's really adorable she can be mean at times she can be lovable she also helps me with my counter when I'm not around. You're loved Mas, count yourself lucky! Lol.
Siti also never make me stops laughing whenever she's free but sadly to say she's leaving us on the 31st Dec, planning to give her a farewell party before she leaves, and me and Mas is off on the 31st Dec but we specially go down to CP just to look for Siti before she leaves! Girl, I'll miss you alot when you're not around cause another gossip kakis of mine is gone. Take care of yourself alright?
Christmas is arriving soon man, lots of things to prepare and get ready for. New year is next but think this year Christmas will be normal maybe get myself 4 dresses to spend for Christmas and New Year. (: I'm dumping the thoughts of having the FCUK watch already. Since my watch always spoilt, I'm still not to the extend that I need such a expensive watch but pretty dresses to makes my days wonderful cause I look good. Okay! I know I'm being very dumb right now to share my thoughts. But whatever things that concern Siti and Mas is true! Words are hard to express my feelings for them, but at least they understand that its from the bottom of my heart.
Time is getting not enough each day. Time flies seriously, it seems like few months back I enter the year of 2008 and now its going to be 2009. I'm still wondering will the world really ends at 2012 or its me thinking too much. I'm worried I still haven't do things that I really wanted to try, for example being a mother of a child and even a wife of someone. Seriously I'm afraid of the word death though there's many times I attempted to kill myself by slitting myself and swallowing pills but it didn't success maybe its God given me a chance to think twice before succeeding in killing myself. Finally found out that its wasn't because my family didn't love me enough its me that I didn't accept whatever they have given to me I've rejected them all. I'm foolish at times. Well, now that I know I'm not walking this path I choose alone I still have my beloved ones accompanying me walking till I reached the end of life.
Life is seriously precious, I've read a friend's blog she went Myanmar to teach those kids there what is Christmas, when I read her post tears just flow down my eyes telling me kids over there are already satisfies because we're there to help them. They lead happy lives even when they are poor but what is happy to us? They can't get whatever they wants but they are happy, what about us? They are willing to even walk 6 km just because of hunger, they are willing to suffer walking then being hungry. As for us? I seriously don't know I gets almost whatever I wants but I'm still not satisfies with lives I'm still unhappy. What do I need to make myself happy like how they do?
Isn't my day today.
