I found out whenever you had a break up you won't never forget each other's parties friends, relative, birthday, zodiac and even their habits. I would really like to create something like forgetting machine(if only I can) so whatever in the past that is unhappy can be erase. I've come to a point that people forgetting when is my birthday and zodiac mixing up with someone he went along in the past. I wasn't happy, I was upset, I was thinking am I the one he's thinking and wanting right now or her. I hope all these are just wishful thinking cause it seriously hurt deep down inside. Alot of things running through a blank mind right now. With all these questions, though he said that "I only remember that you're my girlfriend right now" but I don't know why I'm questioning myself and doubting him. I'm touch and happy to know that but also afraid cause its just might something he said to make me calm down and happy after feeling angry about it.
I don't know who to turn to and doesn't know who to tell, I know whatever in the past has over but something mixing both parties things up is making me afraid and thinking alot. I know that alot of things can't be changed and I know that I can't change the reality about he and her. I just hope he stop mixing up all things to make me feel this way, the feeling is like a moment you're so sweet yet a moment you forget everything about me it hurts and its also scary, like who is the person in your heart right now? You left her behind a hidden doors right behind deep inside your heart where as I'm hidden infornt or maybe even outside your heart. I wonder why am I thinking like this, I feel like crying, but I'm stuck at don't know where to let those horrible tears out. You're making me feel this way...and I feels hurt deep down.
I found out whenever you had a break up you won't never forget each other's parties friends, relative, birthday, zodiac and even their habits. I would really like to create something like forgetting machine(if only I can) so whatever in the past that is unhappy can be erase. I've come to a point that people forgetting when is my birthday and zodiac mixing up with someone he went along in the past. I wasn't happy, I was upset, I was thinking am I the one he's thinking and wanting right now or her. I hope all these are just wishful thinking cause it seriously hurt deep down inside. Alot of things running through a blank mind right now. With all these questions, though he said that "I only remember that you're my girlfriend right now" but I don't know why I'm questioning myself and doubting him. I'm touch and happy to know that but also afraid cause its just might something he said to make me calm down and happy after feeling angry about it.
I don't know who to turn to and doesn't know who to tell, I know whatever in the past has over but something mixing both parties things up is making me afraid and thinking alot. I know that alot of things can't be changed and I know that I can't change the reality about he and her. I just hope he stop mixing up all things to make me feel this way, the feeling is like a moment you're so sweet yet a moment you forget everything about me it hurts and its also scary, like who is the person in your heart right now? You left her behind a hidden doors right behind deep inside your heart where as I'm hidden infornt or maybe even outside your heart. I wonder why am I thinking like this, I feel like crying, but I'm stuck at don't know where to let those horrible tears out. You're making me feel this way...and I feels hurt deep down.
