Feelings are like roller coaster, tears are stuck right inside totally don't know how to let it out. Right now I asking myself how can I trust a guy, the answer is I can't trust in any guys no matter who's the person. I feeling so hurt inside, I don't hate my grandfather and uncle for doing such things, but I hate them for hurting Michelle and Grandma. I love grandma and michelle the most cause they has been taking care of me for 14 years in my life.
Dear God,
Tell me why you must take away the happiness I always think my family is, Why you let me know that my grandfather is fooling around outside, why you take my beloved ones away and letting me what is pain in life? You took away everything about my family. I know when I'm tearing your heart would be bleeding cause its hurting you. But I'm also hurting right now with thousand of thoughts. You given me a reason to love you but you given me a reason to hate you. Why is there hurt, love and hate. Why can't life got nothing about all these? Why you make me stuck in some where in life?
I remember what uncle mike say about life, "In life nothing is simple" I finally understand why he said that. I don't know how to continue this path, I want to give up my life so that I don't have to feel this pain and always stuck in my life. I feel that I'm a jinx since I was born my family is broken. I really don't know what to do and seriously feel like giving up everything. Hubby if you're reading this I know that your heart would be hurting but I would like to tell you my heart is hurting more than you do.
Feelings are like roller coaster, tears are stuck right inside totally don't know how to let it out. Right now I asking myself how can I trust a guy, the answer is I can't trust in any guys no matter who's the person. I feeling so hurt inside, I don't hate my grandfather and uncle for doing such things, but I hate them for hurting Michelle and Grandma. I love grandma and michelle the most cause they has been taking care of me for 14 years in my life.
Dear God,
Tell me why you must take away the happiness I always think my family is, Why you let me know that my grandfather is fooling around outside, why you take my beloved ones away and letting me what is pain in life? You took away everything about my family. I know when I'm tearing your heart would be bleeding cause its hurting you. But I'm also hurting right now with thousand of thoughts. You given me a reason to love you but you given me a reason to hate you. Why is there hurt, love and hate. Why can't life got nothing about all these? Why you make me stuck in some where in life?
I remember what uncle mike say about life, "In life nothing is simple" I finally understand why he said that. I don't know how to continue this path, I want to give up my life so that I don't have to feel this pain and always stuck in my life. I feel that I'm a jinx since I was born my family is broken. I really don't know what to do and seriously feel like giving up everything. Hubby if you're reading this I know that your heart would be hurting but I would like to tell you my heart is hurting more than you do.
