Well Clement and I broke up for sure, its a cfm things already. I read Jasmine's blog and its what clement and me is going through right now he treats me like shit right now. Clement, I've trying to get over you asap because there's no point holding on if you doesn't have any feelings for me, though a few of my friends saying that you're at the heat of the moment but I don't really think you're at the heat of the moment but for real this time round. 3 days of crying and not eating much I lost 4kg already. I choose to lie to myself that you still loves me but the answer is stated very obvious infront of me. Is me that I make a mistake by not clarifying things. But look, what's there to clarify when you've already said out from your mouth you don't trust me? And at the point of moment you've already given me feeling that you didn't trust my words. I told you the truth, if you continue thinking that I'm lying to you and cheating on you. Go ahead please, I don't have the strenght to explain to you anymore. I didn't give my handphone number means I didn't. Would I give my number to a person that looks like satan clus, went in boys home for 3years come out 1month and go jail for 5years and have 3strokes at his ass? I don't know what with the dun trust thing, you actually believe what he said then what I said ? Who's your girlfriend? Him or me? I don't know its time being I've stop crying and finally understand I'm not alone. I have people like, Jasmine, Alex, Cassandra, Clarissa, Alex, Aki, Ivan(bearbear), Michelle, Rowena and Boon Leong to tell me, anything text me or call me. I'll be there for you always or I'm worried. Better off then you, ' I don't want to hear from her, see her, recieve any message from her and anything got to do with her until he exams are over. If she continue to irritates me I'll just have to find another girlfriend just to get rid of her.' When I heard this I've already given up hope. But I'm still trying hard now because I'm just holding on to that 0.01% for this relationship. Like you holding onto the 0.01% of going to accept me back. Its a starting of my new life right now. I miss you, yes of cos I do, 11months aint a short time of being together aint long being together also, to you some says that you've already lost feelings and just finding excuse to break up with me. But some say that 11months leh, where got so easy lost feelings one, some say that you didn't mean what you said because he did that before too. But let's face the fact you want to go your way, I let you go your way. But if we really patch up and things goes smoothly, there's one thing I request, I won't control your life so you don't control mine. When you want me to change or want to me do something better do it yourself before asking me to do it. But I believe in what Jasmine said, even though your patch up there's a fact that I can't change, that is there will always be a barrier between both of us. That's the fact of it. If we really get back together I won't love you as much as I love in the past. Like what you said, I shld earn your love. So Now, lets put the fact together, both of us should earn each other's love. Maybe let's just stop here for a moment till my exams are over and results are out. I'm working hard right now but not for your sake, just for my own sake and my future sake.
Well Clement and I broke up for sure, its a cfm things already. I read Jasmine's blog and its what clement and me is going through right now he treats me like shit right now. Clement, I've trying to get over you asap because there's no point holding on if you doesn't have any feelings for me, though a few of my friends saying that you're at the heat of the moment but I don't really think you're at the heat of the moment but for real this time round. 3 days of crying and not eating much I lost 4kg already. I choose to lie to myself that you still loves me but the answer is stated very obvious infront of me. Is me that I make a mistake by not clarifying things. But look, what's there to clarify when you've already said out from your mouth you don't trust me? And at the point of moment you've already given me feeling that you didn't trust my words. I told you the truth, if you continue thinking that I'm lying to you and cheating on you. Go ahead please, I don't have the strenght to explain to you anymore. I didn't give my handphone number means I didn't. Would I give my number to a person that looks like satan clus, went in boys home for 3years come out 1month and go jail for 5years and have 3strokes at his ass? I don't know what with the dun trust thing, you actually believe what he said then what I said ? Who's your girlfriend? Him or me? I don't know its time being I've stop crying and finally understand I'm not alone. I have people like, Jasmine, Alex, Cassandra, Clarissa, Alex, Aki, Ivan(bearbear), Michelle, Rowena and Boon Leong to tell me, anything text me or call me. I'll be there for you always or I'm worried. Better off then you, ' I don't want to hear from her, see her, recieve any message from her and anything got to do with her until he exams are over. If she continue to irritates me I'll just have to find another girlfriend just to get rid of her.' When I heard this I've already given up hope. But I'm still trying hard now because I'm just holding on to that 0.01% for this relationship. Like you holding onto the 0.01% of going to accept me back. Its a starting of my new life right now. I miss you, yes of cos I do, 11months aint a short time of being together aint long being together also, to you some says that you've already lost feelings and just finding excuse to break up with me. But some say that 11months leh, where got so easy lost feelings one, some say that you didn't mean what you said because he did that before too. But let's face the fact you want to go your way, I let you go your way. But if we really patch up and things goes smoothly, there's one thing I request, I won't control your life so you don't control mine. When you want me to change or want to me do something better do it yourself before asking me to do it. But I believe in what Jasmine said, even though your patch up there's a fact that I can't change, that is there will always be a barrier between both of us. That's the fact of it. If we really get back together I won't love you as much as I love in the past. Like what you said, I shld earn your love. So Now, lets put the fact together, both of us should earn each other's love. Maybe let's just stop here for a moment till my exams are over and results are out. I'm working hard right now but not for your sake, just for my own sake and my future sake.
