I really don't know what to do. I want to let this feeling out for a very long time but why it wouldn't just get out and get lost in my life. She's expecting and because of that I must be the maid again in the house! What's the problem man, just because she's expecting then I also can say that I'm sick she asked me go all the way out to somewhere just to get the dogs somethings what logic? Am sick and she's also sick but expecting, I feels terrible who bothers? Who care? I'm very tired living, I'm back to the old self of I want to end my life here cos of unhappiness,yes baby can give me the happiness but it always says blood is thicker than blood. But to me now I seriously know why some people treats water thicker than blood.
Mummy is also her daughter I am also her grand-daughter, but she just treated both people differently. Yes can't show equally love but she don't have to do things until like that. Don't treat me as a maid do things for you and do that for you. And because of she got a house coming and I got to stay over here there I have my bed, I have my things to do when I go there, equal freedom and everything is gone. I don't need that, I don't want to stay at a person's house that don't earn respect from me. He will never earn and I will never give him cos he don't deserve it. I suddenly feels very tired of all these things, I can just want to let all these feelings out but I'm afraid to let people know about it. I don't want anyone to know about it, I don't want people to know that I'm going with this feelings of wanting to die. I don't want to make people worry, but I seriously can't take it anymore, I totally don't know what am I feeling now, I don't know my emotions, I've lost my emotions I had no more emotions.
I really don't know what to do. I want to let this feeling out for a very long time but why it wouldn't just get out and get lost in my life. She's expecting and because of that I must be the maid again in the house! What's the problem man, just because she's expecting then I also can say that I'm sick she asked me go all the way out to somewhere just to get the dogs somethings what logic? Am sick and she's also sick but expecting, I feels terrible who bothers? Who care? I'm very tired living, I'm back to the old self of I want to end my life here cos of unhappiness,yes baby can give me the happiness but it always says blood is thicker than blood. But to me now I seriously know why some people treats water thicker than blood.
Mummy is also her daughter I am also her grand-daughter, but she just treated both people differently. Yes can't show equally love but she don't have to do things until like that. Don't treat me as a maid do things for you and do that for you. And because of she got a house coming and I got to stay over here there I have my bed, I have my things to do when I go there, equal freedom and everything is gone. I don't need that, I don't want to stay at a person's house that don't earn respect from me. He will never earn and I will never give him cos he don't deserve it. I suddenly feels very tired of all these things, I can just want to let all these feelings out but I'm afraid to let people know about it. I don't want anyone to know about it, I don't want people to know that I'm going with this feelings of wanting to die. I don't want to make people worry, but I seriously can't take it anymore, I totally don't know what am I feeling now, I don't know my emotions, I've lost my emotions I had no more emotions.
