Loving a person is to tolerate and to accept things tat ur lover does. I feeling lost right now, I seems to be thinking quite alot and chew chew is here to cheer me up every single time he wakes up for he's handsome sleep. Tears just want to flow but I control it. I doesn't have a reason to cry, I'm also not hurt or anything. I just want to let the feeling out, I felt like crying. But trying to ask myself why am I cry. Like what honey told me. If you doesn't have a reason to cry on then why are you crying.
I'm been wanting to cry this few days. Seriously wanting to cry. Nobodys bullying me. Just that I want to let the stupid feeling out. Yes, i thinking of my grandpa. I really miss him alot alot, I quarrel with Michelle the day before yesterday. Yes, I told her, if grandpa never leave, I won't turn out to be like that. Yes, I dislike Kriscilla why? Because it seems like after she came out everybody's attention is to her, but not me anymore. Yes, I'm stupid to compare myself with a freaking 2yrs old kiddy. But think about tat, since after my 1 month old day come, my dad have left me. Kriscilla is the same infact both of us have a same start, but different ending. After a few months later Kriscilla's daddy come back.. but wher's is mine??? He left for 13(+3months more is 14 already) he had never come back. I never see my daddy before. I had never been pampered from a daddy.
But only my grandpa pamper me like my dad. For 9yrs and story start coming up which I dun want to mention anymore. Yes, the past hurt me alot alot. I'm trying to let it go but it seems like the things can't be forgotten that easily. Yes, I'm weak, very weak. I'm not as strong as what I think I am. I can't even forgets about the past. Its hurtful, I dun like people to mention about my past cos I dislike them. I don't like them at all. Trying to ask them get lost but I can't bring myself to do it.
Yes, tis world is cruel. Very cruel, some people are lucky they're born with a Golden spoon in their mouth, but me.. I'm born with a broom in my mouth. I'm thinking isit me whom make this family broke up.. After I'm inside mum's tummy everything is bad. Am trying to ask myself am i jinx. Yes, because of honey I try to change myself. But like what michelle have said, I wan to change, but few days later I gif up. Because people can't see my changes. All along I've been asking myself even wanted to ask my mum why am I here, why was I even born? But now I've gotta my answer I'm born to finish my life circle, I'm born to study and have a good life for myself.
Even how much I dislike things in the past it gonna be past forever, time can't rewind everything to twist the life. I'm already very lucky to have Clement honey to be with me.... I'm really lucky. I really want to take him by staying with me for tis 7months coming 8. Tolerating all things like my princess temper, and stuff. Thankyou honey... seriously Thankyou.
Loving a person is to tolerate and to accept things tat ur lover does. I feeling lost right now, I seems to be thinking quite alot and chew chew is here to cheer me up every single time he wakes up for he's handsome sleep. Tears just want to flow but I control it. I doesn't have a reason to cry, I'm also not hurt or anything. I just want to let the feeling out, I felt like crying. But trying to ask myself why am I cry. Like what honey told me. If you doesn't have a reason to cry on then why are you crying.
I'm been wanting to cry this few days. Seriously wanting to cry. Nobodys bullying me. Just that I want to let the stupid feeling out. Yes, i thinking of my grandpa. I really miss him alot alot, I quarrel with Michelle the day before yesterday. Yes, I told her, if grandpa never leave, I won't turn out to be like that. Yes, I dislike Kriscilla why? Because it seems like after she came out everybody's attention is to her, but not me anymore. Yes, I'm stupid to compare myself with a freaking 2yrs old kiddy. But think about tat, since after my 1 month old day come, my dad have left me. Kriscilla is the same infact both of us have a same start, but different ending. After a few months later Kriscilla's daddy come back.. but wher's is mine??? He left for 13(+3months more is 14 already) he had never come back. I never see my daddy before. I had never been pampered from a daddy.
But only my grandpa pamper me like my dad. For 9yrs and story start coming up which I dun want to mention anymore. Yes, the past hurt me alot alot. I'm trying to let it go but it seems like the things can't be forgotten that easily. Yes, I'm weak, very weak. I'm not as strong as what I think I am. I can't even forgets about the past. Its hurtful, I dun like people to mention about my past cos I dislike them. I don't like them at all. Trying to ask them get lost but I can't bring myself to do it.
Yes, tis world is cruel. Very cruel, some people are lucky they're born with a Golden spoon in their mouth, but me.. I'm born with a broom in my mouth. I'm thinking isit me whom make this family broke up.. After I'm inside mum's tummy everything is bad. Am trying to ask myself am i jinx. Yes, because of honey I try to change myself. But like what michelle have said, I wan to change, but few days later I gif up. Because people can't see my changes. All along I've been asking myself even wanted to ask my mum why am I here, why was I even born? But now I've gotta my answer I'm born to finish my life circle, I'm born to study and have a good life for myself.
Even how much I dislike things in the past it gonna be past forever, time can't rewind everything to twist the life. I'm already very lucky to have Clement honey to be with me.... I'm really lucky. I really want to take him by staying with me for tis 7months coming 8. Tolerating all things like my princess temper, and stuff. Thankyou honey... seriously Thankyou.
