I know that its crazy t be blogging at this time.. But then I'm still wide awake thou I promised DEAR DEAR that I'll be sleeping early. I really can't get t sleep, and we're meeting in th afternoon t get Ah Chompz(DARLING) hahahaha! joss paper for night time. Hmm .. I'm hungry now, but I forgot t draw cash out I feel like eating Mac's breakfast lor.. Hell, especially th pancakes w sausage! How I wish DEAR DEAR is awake so we can go have Mac's breakfast. ROAR! Haa, but its okay lar, that day he accompany me once alr. Let him rest this time.. Guess he should be very tired le.. Everyday like that accompany me.. I want t start my make up course, now I'm preparing t go back t studies. I really wants t just have fun w everything now and start t work hard once my course start. Maybe after my make up course I would go for retail marketing or stuff t carry on and work hard.
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Sorry, I was so into facebook's photo till I forgotten I was blogging. Haa! Now its alr 9.14am. I'm damn hungry but still waiting for DEAR DEAR t wake up & go lunch w him instead of eating alone. But he only sleep at 6am hais.. He slept for only 3 hrs. Hmm.. wait till 3 or 4 bah.. That time then he'll wake up. That silly boy don't know sleep till where le.. Should be at la la land.
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Ok, now I'm going off. Stop blogging for now, do other things haa! See ya!
Poor me, having an empty stomach now.. I miss those days where grandma's is home where there's food around and can just cook somethings t eat like prata, campbell soup or even cup noodles. ROAR! I'm damn bloody hungry & I'm actually still craving for Mac's breakfast thou 2nd & 3rd I was eating Mac's breakfast. But I'm still craving for it. Haa! I craving for Rojak, Fish & Chip, Chicken Rice, Roti Prata, Roasted duck rice, Swensen's curry chicken baked rice, Hanabi's salmon sashimi, Sushi Tei's salmon mentai & etc etc!! OMG!!~~ Its making me more hungry t think about food now lor.. Hungry.. " A hungry gal, is a angry gal" ):!!
On th phone w dear dear.. and my stomach is like *GROWLING GROWLING* WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~ I'm hungry ): I craving for Mac's breakfast now.
I love today! I love everything happens today! Its just something that I can't forget cze it's all fun & happy. First we went t meet up w Ah Long & his girlf at bugis went t watch *Night At Th Museum 2* th 2nd time I watched.. Haa. Tmr going Escape Theme Park w Ah Long & his girlf again.
Now its 6.01am, on th phone w dear dear, kk, I go off le. Tmr blog more w photos.
My dears, get over w what's happening and move on find someone better than them.. Not worth cze of them wasting ur tears.. Thou I know is easy t said hard t be done, but I'm always here k? Since I've alr stopped working I will spend my time w u all. Catch up w u babes on th 2nd june k? (: Don't think too much le.. I will be always here & forever here till th day I die.. Remember our promises? Never leave each other when we're upset.. & always be there.. (: I love you gals k? You're all my gal.. (:
Today marks our 1 month anniversary together, I know just now I took things too serious till it hurts me thou. But I'm always happy w u.. Not saying this cze u're my current boyf but u really tried t uds me and even whenever I have my little princess attitude u would not throw ur temper neither do u give in, but talk nicely and tell me what's wrong w me. Th past let it go, I don't wish t think about it anymore.. He or she.. I still have t learn t grow up and live w it.
I don't know what is happening w me. Pms? mood swing? I really don't know.. My tears are falling while writting this post.
To Cassandra; My dear u're welcome for everything.. I can't take him as a friend.. I'm not that strong t overcome everything that has been for th past 1 yr.. Its not that I can't treat him as one. I wanted t.. but I wasn't that strong t overcome everything at one short. Especially th truth aft we ended.. I'm happy w who I am w now.. I really don't wish t get hurt anymore. I felt that I'm no longer that strong t overcome everything so smoothly..
Guys can say two words and end th whole relationship "NO FEELINGS" everything just collaspe and ended, th book that can't continue writting. But we don't have much of a choice cze we're always on th losing end. It hurts more than anything else when a person has alr fall deeply into u & yet u just push her off th buliding just like that. I'm not picky on u or anything.. cze I know that I doesn't have th rights, but I really uds th pain that she's going thru now. I wish I was her, going thru all this for her.. But I found out that I'm no longer that strong and have th strenght t fight back so much. I just wish t have a simple r/s or even a simple life style. I know people going t say that in this world there's no simple this word in th dictionary. But in my life, yes there is such word, but is whether your partner or urself can bring it t life.
Everything takes 2 hands t clap, if one hand decided t stop.. that's th end of everything. I just hope this is really what both of ur wants. I know my current path is hard t walk.. but I'm willing t show that I'm going t walk over it, and see th light again.
I had a dream, maybe a nightmare or maybe just cze I've thinked too much about th past.. She appeared in my dreams, helping him t get some things done and we pretended we're nothing at all but she found out some pictures that shldn't be seen and she went off running away from it, he chased her, without even thinking how I feels. I left hanging half way w my feelings I cried w all my strenght I felt my heart torn into pieces. I called him but yet he was worried about her more than me.. I asked him t make a choice me or her.. He can't answer me.. So I left th answer empty.. After that Cass called, and I woke up in tears I can feel that my pillow is wet w tears.. I can feel th feeling is so real. Like as thou I'm really going thru it.
It has alr gotten over, I shouldn't be thinking about it anymore, but today it actually appears in my dreams again about th past. Can't I really let go about th past!? What's most important is th future. I miss everything of my love ones, I really miss.. Not about my ex-boyfs but my family, I miss th complete family even without my dad around me, I miss my grandfather taking us out for breakfast, dinner, supper. I miss him bringing us t th pool while my grandmother actually don't let. I miss th way me and Cassandra snatching him t tell us bedtime stories I miss th way he scold me whenever I asked him t make milo let me drink.
I miss th way my great grandma hold me hand t sleep while she's unwell, I miss th way she asked me question about school, I miss th way she's laugh and smile at me cze of my naive thinking. But it was too late.. I let my thoughts run wild when she left. I miss everything about th past when I've got nothing t bother about. Everything was planned for me. But God took back everything from me, cze he knows that I'm a not-so-strong gal. Even till now, I'm still a soft-hearted, not-so-strong, careless, clumsy little gal. I miss I really miss alot of things. I love things it is now, but sometimes if in th past when we knew nothing would be better. I miss those little fights me and Cassandra made while we're young. Suddenly th past hit back into my mind.
My grandfather has left cze of his woman outside.. So I've got nothing more t say but I miss th good times when everything was fine. My dad left me for I don't know th reason I don't wish t know either. I felt there's too much things around me t tell me that I've got t be strong in order t protect myself. I've t try t be one and must be one.
Ytd went out w Michypan, she was actually lazy t come t east area t find her friends but cze of tampinesONE she came all th way down taking train haa.. Then we went t brought movie tickets & off t tampinesONE sushi tei!!! Cool was missing sushi just nice th right time! Haa.
23.05.09
Woke up late for work waking up only when Uncle Roger call me up. Haa! Then called baby and ask him whether wants t go out since he also never work. So we wanted t catch movie but ended up it was too late so we went t hongkong cafe and have dinner walk walk around and chit chat awhile before going home. I know th post are getting short, but then I really don't have th mood t blog. But t keeps this blog alive I've got t do so. (: I'm waiting for calls I shall go off waiting & watching tv. Hee! Thanks t Michy for th photos cze I was lazy t take my camera out that day! Haa. Lazy t take pics ley.
I know that its crazy t be blogging at this time.. But then I'm still wide awake thou I promised DEAR DEAR that I'll be sleeping early. I really can't get t sleep, and we're meeting in th afternoon t get Ah Chompz(DARLING) hahahaha! joss paper for night time. Hmm .. I'm hungry now, but I forgot t draw cash out I feel like eating Mac's breakfast lor.. Hell, especially th pancakes w sausage! How I wish DEAR DEAR is awake so we can go have Mac's breakfast. ROAR! Haa, but its okay lar, that day he accompany me once alr. Let him rest this time.. Guess he should be very tired le.. Everyday like that accompany me.. I want t start my make up course, now I'm preparing t go back t studies. I really wants t just have fun w everything now and start t work hard once my course start. Maybe after my make up course I would go for retail marketing or stuff t carry on and work hard.
Pause for 25mins.
Sorry, I was so into facebook's photo till I forgotten I was blogging. Haa! Now its alr 9.14am. I'm damn hungry but still waiting for DEAR DEAR t wake up & go lunch w him instead of eating alone. But he only sleep at 6am hais.. He slept for only 3 hrs. Hmm.. wait till 3 or 4 bah.. That time then he'll wake up. That silly boy don't know sleep till where le.. Should be at la la land.
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Ok, now I'm going off. Stop blogging for now, do other things haa! See ya!
Poor me, having an empty stomach now.. I miss those days where grandma's is home where there's food around and can just cook somethings t eat like prata, campbell soup or even cup noodles. ROAR! I'm damn bloody hungry & I'm actually still craving for Mac's breakfast thou 2nd & 3rd I was eating Mac's breakfast. But I'm still craving for it. Haa! I craving for Rojak, Fish & Chip, Chicken Rice, Roti Prata, Roasted duck rice, Swensen's curry chicken baked rice, Hanabi's salmon sashimi, Sushi Tei's salmon mentai & etc etc!! OMG!!~~ Its making me more hungry t think about food now lor.. Hungry.. " A hungry gal, is a angry gal" ):!!
On th phone w dear dear.. and my stomach is like *GROWLING GROWLING* WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~ I'm hungry ): I craving for Mac's breakfast now.
I love today! I love everything happens today! Its just something that I can't forget cze it's all fun & happy. First we went t meet up w Ah Long & his girlf at bugis went t watch *Night At Th Museum 2* th 2nd time I watched.. Haa. Tmr going Escape Theme Park w Ah Long & his girlf again.
Now its 6.01am, on th phone w dear dear, kk, I go off le. Tmr blog more w photos.
My dears, get over w what's happening and move on find someone better than them.. Not worth cze of them wasting ur tears.. Thou I know is easy t said hard t be done, but I'm always here k? Since I've alr stopped working I will spend my time w u all. Catch up w u babes on th 2nd june k? (: Don't think too much le.. I will be always here & forever here till th day I die.. Remember our promises? Never leave each other when we're upset.. & always be there.. (: I love you gals k? You're all my gal.. (:
Today marks our 1 month anniversary together, I know just now I took things too serious till it hurts me thou. But I'm always happy w u.. Not saying this cze u're my current boyf but u really tried t uds me and even whenever I have my little princess attitude u would not throw ur temper neither do u give in, but talk nicely and tell me what's wrong w me. Th past let it go, I don't wish t think about it anymore.. He or she.. I still have t learn t grow up and live w it.
I don't know what is happening w me. Pms? mood swing? I really don't know.. My tears are falling while writting this post.
To Cassandra; My dear u're welcome for everything.. I can't take him as a friend.. I'm not that strong t overcome everything that has been for th past 1 yr.. Its not that I can't treat him as one. I wanted t.. but I wasn't that strong t overcome everything at one short. Especially th truth aft we ended.. I'm happy w who I am w now.. I really don't wish t get hurt anymore. I felt that I'm no longer that strong t overcome everything so smoothly..
Guys can say two words and end th whole relationship "NO FEELINGS" everything just collaspe and ended, th book that can't continue writting. But we don't have much of a choice cze we're always on th losing end. It hurts more than anything else when a person has alr fall deeply into u & yet u just push her off th buliding just like that. I'm not picky on u or anything.. cze I know that I doesn't have th rights, but I really uds th pain that she's going thru now. I wish I was her, going thru all this for her.. But I found out that I'm no longer that strong and have th strenght t fight back so much. I just wish t have a simple r/s or even a simple life style. I know people going t say that in this world there's no simple this word in th dictionary. But in my life, yes there is such word, but is whether your partner or urself can bring it t life.
Everything takes 2 hands t clap, if one hand decided t stop.. that's th end of everything. I just hope this is really what both of ur wants. I know my current path is hard t walk.. but I'm willing t show that I'm going t walk over it, and see th light again.
I had a dream, maybe a nightmare or maybe just cze I've thinked too much about th past.. She appeared in my dreams, helping him t get some things done and we pretended we're nothing at all but she found out some pictures that shldn't be seen and she went off running away from it, he chased her, without even thinking how I feels. I left hanging half way w my feelings I cried w all my strenght I felt my heart torn into pieces. I called him but yet he was worried about her more than me.. I asked him t make a choice me or her.. He can't answer me.. So I left th answer empty.. After that Cass called, and I woke up in tears I can feel that my pillow is wet w tears.. I can feel th feeling is so real. Like as thou I'm really going thru it.
It has alr gotten over, I shouldn't be thinking about it anymore, but today it actually appears in my dreams again about th past. Can't I really let go about th past!? What's most important is th future. I miss everything of my love ones, I really miss.. Not about my ex-boyfs but my family, I miss th complete family even without my dad around me, I miss my grandfather taking us out for breakfast, dinner, supper. I miss him bringing us t th pool while my grandmother actually don't let. I miss th way me and Cassandra snatching him t tell us bedtime stories I miss th way he scold me whenever I asked him t make milo let me drink.
I miss th way my great grandma hold me hand t sleep while she's unwell, I miss th way she asked me question about school, I miss th way she's laugh and smile at me cze of my naive thinking. But it was too late.. I let my thoughts run wild when she left. I miss everything about th past when I've got nothing t bother about. Everything was planned for me. But God took back everything from me, cze he knows that I'm a not-so-strong gal. Even till now, I'm still a soft-hearted, not-so-strong, careless, clumsy little gal. I miss I really miss alot of things. I love things it is now, but sometimes if in th past when we knew nothing would be better. I miss those little fights me and Cassandra made while we're young. Suddenly th past hit back into my mind.
My grandfather has left cze of his woman outside.. So I've got nothing more t say but I miss th good times when everything was fine. My dad left me for I don't know th reason I don't wish t know either. I felt there's too much things around me t tell me that I've got t be strong in order t protect myself. I've t try t be one and must be one.
Ytd went out w Michypan, she was actually lazy t come t east area t find her friends but cze of tampinesONE she came all th way down taking train haa.. Then we went t brought movie tickets & off t tampinesONE sushi tei!!! Cool was missing sushi just nice th right time! Haa.
23.05.09
Woke up late for work waking up only when Uncle Roger call me up. Haa! Then called baby and ask him whether wants t go out since he also never work. So we wanted t catch movie but ended up it was too late so we went t hongkong cafe and have dinner walk walk around and chit chat awhile before going home. I know th post are getting short, but then I really don't have th mood t blog. But t keeps this blog alive I've got t do so. (: I'm waiting for calls I shall go off waiting & watching tv. Hee! Thanks t Michy for th photos cze I was lazy t take my camera out that day! Haa. Lazy t take pics ley.
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